#2timothy17 #ebola #fear #donotfear #Godisincontrol #pray

#2timothy17 #ebola #fear #donotfear #Godisincontrol #pray

@4 days ago
#pray #donotfear #fear #godisincontrol #2timothy17 #ebola #ebola virus #africa #dallas #texas 

Don’t let fear control your life.

With some of the things that’s been going on lately, such as the Boston Marathon bombings, Sandy Hook, and the Aurora theater shooting, a lot of people are full of fear, and rightfully so.

My heart and prayers goes out to everyone affected by all those events, and I mean nothing but respect for them.

But, we can’t let fear control us, you know?  We can’t let a few crazy people control our lives.  I’ll admit, when I go to a theater, I still glance around, bring a knife in my purse (hey, better than nothing), and figure out possible escape routes.  I still get scared when my sister goes to work as a fifth grade teacher.  

But do you think the people who lost their lives, would want all of us to be afraid?  I don’t think they would.  I know if it were me, I wouldn’t want people to have fear.  I’d want them to live their lives.

So, don’t let fear stop you from doing things.  Just trust in God, and it’s okay to be a little cautious, just don’t let it control you.  Fear is not something you’re born with, it’s something you learn, it’s something you take.

I’m signed up to do a 5k this weekend, and I’m going to do it.  My mom called and was saying she didn’t want me to do anymore 5ks. But, it’s for a cause that’s special to me (March of Dimes), and I’m not going to let one crazy idiot stop me.  

So, go to the theaters, kiss your kids/little siblings before they go to school, and go run.  Don’t let fear control your lives, and don’t let the actions of evil people ruin them.  

Be fearless, be strong, and carry on.

@1 year ago
#fear #afraid #fearless #strength #strong #life #love #loss 

"I have said these things to you, that in me you may have peace. In the world you will have tribulation. But take heart; I have overcome the world."

John 16:33 
@2 years ago with 1 note
#courage #fear #fearless #strength #peace #God #fitblr #Christian 

Social Anxiety

I wish more people could understand it.  It’s a very hard thing to live with.  I know anxiety doesn’t seem like it would be, but it is.  I wish everyone in my life could understand what I go through with it, and how much of a challenge it is.  I wish they understood how hard it is to do a lot of the things that’s just normal for everyone else.

I lost a friend today and a lot of it was because she doesn’t understand my anxiety at all. 

Anxiety isn’t just getting nervous.  Social anxiety is literally having a fear of social situations.  I get nervous going to school, work, and even just going to the grocery store sometimes.  I take medicine for it which has helped a lot, but nothing can completely take it away.  It made me depressed for years.  It was a main reason I gained weight.  It is what makes me have so many regrets.  It’s what makes me so sad, because I fear my future will never be what I want it to be.  I’m too scared to make my dreams happen.

Anxiety is a struggle every day.  Panic attacks hit at random times and it doesn’t make sense to most people.

So, please, if you know anyone with anxiety problems, be patient with them.  You might not understand why, but trust me, we don’t either. 

It’s a very hard thing to deal with since most of the people I know have no idea.  My mom is the only person who also has anxiety problems that I’m close to.  I’m so lucky I do have her. 

I hate when people tell me to be a “big girl” or to “just do it”.  Hey, I wish it were that easy!  I wish I could be a big girl and do it.  And I try my hardest to do just that, but I can’t be strong 100% of the time.

Anyways, random rant.  I know this has nothing to do with my fitspo, but it has a lot to do with me.

@2 years ago with 26 notes
#social anxiety #panic #panic attacks #anxiety #fear #future #nervous #social 

ER+Social Anxiety+Almost Fired=Me

Let me explain. 

I started working as an admissions clerk at the hospital a few weeks ago.  I knew I’d be registering people for surgery, x-rays, lab work, and even admitting people into the hospital.

I found out within my first couple days that I may work ER.  I was nervous enough, thinking of dealing with people coming in with pneumonia or a chopped finger, but today I finally did it for the first time.

It was much worse than I imagined.  I won’t go into detail because of HIPAA, but let’s just say we interact with the ER patients much more than I realized (like, getting their info or putting their hospital bracelet on while they are hooked up to machines or the doctors are working on them).  That’s terrifying to me, and it sent me into a panic attack.  I mean, I’ve dealt with them for about 8 years now, but I don’t have them as often so it’s always a bit surprising (and this one was really bad, I was hyperventilating in the restroom).

I mean, I’m seeing people suffering, and it’s really hard.  It’s hard not to use my natural instinct to help them (like most humans have).  It’s hard to separate my job from them as people, and not just make them into another registrant or patient on the computer.  It’s hard to stay calm and sit there and ask their demographic information while they are laying there crying or are visibly in pain.   Plus the people training me tell me to use my own judgment on who gets in first.  I know nothing about medical stuff.  I don’t even know enough to know what to call it other than “medical stuff.”  I don’t want to kill anybody!

So I had a panic attack and told my supervisor, because she saw me crying and I wanted to be honest (she’s also my friend).   I was just honest and told her that I didn’t think I could handle ER, that it made me panic, and if she had to let me go I understood.

Well, we went and talked to our boss (like, over my supervisor) and she said she’d try and see if human resources will let her make it where I just work the clinical side.  

Well, they didn’t, because their motto is, “you can’t accommodate one and not all,” which I totally understand.  I mean, it is a bit irritating since it’s not just a preference but an actual medical problem I have, but I also get it.

So she called me this afternoon (my boss) and told me that they wouldn’t allow that, and asked if I’d be able to fulfill that part of my job.  I was honest and said no, I can’t. 

It sucked.  I was so upset, because I really like my job and I hated that one little part of it (I’d only do ER when they needed someone to fill in or on Holidays) was going to screw it up.

I didn’t know how I could do it, though, without panicking.  If you have social anxiety and panic attacks you know that it’s hard not to associate that panic with a place or event that it occurred at.  So I didn’t know if I’d be able to even go back in there without panicking.  And panicking while working in the ER is not good for anybody, and I really didn’t want to screw anything up.

So I laid on my bed, jobless, crying, and really frustrated.  I didn’t know what to do.   All of a sudden something hit me, and I don’t know what it was (well, it was God, but you know what i mean), but I was like, “I have to get my job back.  I can’t let this defeat me again.”

So I called my boss and asked if I could come back and try a few more days, and she told me I could (she’s really nice, I’m glad she’s my boss.  She seemed to at least partly understand and know I wasn’t just being dramatic or petty).  

So, we’ll see how tomorrow goes.  I’m really, really hoping I can find a way to suppress that panic.  I love my job and I don’t want to lose it.  Plus, if I can overcome it, that’ll be a HUGE step in my life.  

I thank God for giving me the strength and courage to get my job back.  I thank Him for letting my boss see that I wasn’t being a huge cry baby.  And I hope and pray that I will do well.

And on a side note, I really don’t like the attitude of the nurses and doctors in the ER.  Like,a  guy was crying today and they called him a cry baby once they got out of his room.  I think ANYONE alone in the ER after a car wreck would be upset.  It kind of pissed me off, to be honest, and I hope I can at least be that one nice person in the ER that makes a patient feel more comfortable and cared for.

So that’s my story of the day.  If you could PLEASE keep me in your prayers, I’d appreciate it 100%.  And if you have ever dealt with something similar, or worked in the ER, message me advice, tips, etc.

@2 months ago
#social anxiety #anxiety #panic attacks #panic #ER #emergency room #hospital #clerk #job #advice #help #admissions #work #God #prayer #strength #courage #fear #bravery #fearless #brave #roar 

"Everything can change in the blink of an eye. But don’t worry; God never blinks."

@2 years ago with 5 notes
#encouragement #life #God #love #change #fear #courage #strength #fitblr 

"Be strong and courageous. Do not fear or be in dread of them, for it is the LORD your God who goes with you. He will not leave you or forsake you."

Deuteronomy 31:6
@2 years ago with 3 notes
#strength #courage #strong #fear #fitblr #Christian #fitness #health #life 

My biggest fears on weight loss.

  1. That I will lose fat, but my skin will still be all saggy.  I’ve been told as long as I tone, it should be fine.  I’ve also been told that since I’m still young, it will tighten up faster, too.  So, let’s hope.
  2. That I won’t be happy when I reach my goal weight.  I set it because it’s what’s healthy, and of course that’s important.  And I’m sure I’ll look good.  But, I’ve been unhappy with my body my entire life, and I’m afraid that mindset will still be.
  3. That I’ll gain it all back.  I plan on always eating healthy and going to the gym, but when people get content…

Of course, as some of you know, my motto is “Be Fearless.”  When I reach my goal weight, I even plan to get Fearless tattooed on my side really small to remind me what I went through.  But still, I’m trying to be Fearless, but it’s still hard!

Does anybody else have any of these fears?

@3 years ago with 5 notes
#weight loss #weight #fitspo #fitness #health #healthy #fear #fearless 
#2timothy17 #ebola #fear #donotfear #Godisincontrol #pray
4 days ago
#pray #donotfear #fear #godisincontrol #2timothy17 #ebola #ebola virus #africa #dallas #texas 
ER+Social Anxiety+Almost Fired=Me

Let me explain. 

I started working as an admissions clerk at the hospital a few weeks ago.  I knew I’d be registering people for surgery, x-rays, lab work, and even admitting people into the hospital.

I found out within my first couple days that I may work ER.  I was nervous enough, thinking of dealing with people coming in with pneumonia or a chopped finger, but today I finally did it for the first time.

It was much worse than I imagined.  I won’t go into detail because of HIPAA, but let’s just say we interact with the ER patients much more than I realized (like, getting their info or putting their hospital bracelet on while they are hooked up to machines or the doctors are working on them).  That’s terrifying to me, and it sent me into a panic attack.  I mean, I’ve dealt with them for about 8 years now, but I don’t have them as often so it’s always a bit surprising (and this one was really bad, I was hyperventilating in the restroom).

I mean, I’m seeing people suffering, and it’s really hard.  It’s hard not to use my natural instinct to help them (like most humans have).  It’s hard to separate my job from them as people, and not just make them into another registrant or patient on the computer.  It’s hard to stay calm and sit there and ask their demographic information while they are laying there crying or are visibly in pain.   Plus the people training me tell me to use my own judgment on who gets in first.  I know nothing about medical stuff.  I don’t even know enough to know what to call it other than “medical stuff.”  I don’t want to kill anybody!

So I had a panic attack and told my supervisor, because she saw me crying and I wanted to be honest (she’s also my friend).   I was just honest and told her that I didn’t think I could handle ER, that it made me panic, and if she had to let me go I understood.

Well, we went and talked to our boss (like, over my supervisor) and she said she’d try and see if human resources will let her make it where I just work the clinical side.  

Well, they didn’t, because their motto is, “you can’t accommodate one and not all,” which I totally understand.  I mean, it is a bit irritating since it’s not just a preference but an actual medical problem I have, but I also get it.

So she called me this afternoon (my boss) and told me that they wouldn’t allow that, and asked if I’d be able to fulfill that part of my job.  I was honest and said no, I can’t. 

It sucked.  I was so upset, because I really like my job and I hated that one little part of it (I’d only do ER when they needed someone to fill in or on Holidays) was going to screw it up.

I didn’t know how I could do it, though, without panicking.  If you have social anxiety and panic attacks you know that it’s hard not to associate that panic with a place or event that it occurred at.  So I didn’t know if I’d be able to even go back in there without panicking.  And panicking while working in the ER is not good for anybody, and I really didn’t want to screw anything up.

So I laid on my bed, jobless, crying, and really frustrated.  I didn’t know what to do.   All of a sudden something hit me, and I don’t know what it was (well, it was God, but you know what i mean), but I was like, “I have to get my job back.  I can’t let this defeat me again.”

So I called my boss and asked if I could come back and try a few more days, and she told me I could (she’s really nice, I’m glad she’s my boss.  She seemed to at least partly understand and know I wasn’t just being dramatic or petty).  

So, we’ll see how tomorrow goes.  I’m really, really hoping I can find a way to suppress that panic.  I love my job and I don’t want to lose it.  Plus, if I can overcome it, that’ll be a HUGE step in my life.  

I thank God for giving me the strength and courage to get my job back.  I thank Him for letting my boss see that I wasn’t being a huge cry baby.  And I hope and pray that I will do well.

And on a side note, I really don’t like the attitude of the nurses and doctors in the ER.  Like,a  guy was crying today and they called him a cry baby once they got out of his room.  I think ANYONE alone in the ER after a car wreck would be upset.  It kind of pissed me off, to be honest, and I hope I can at least be that one nice person in the ER that makes a patient feel more comfortable and cared for.

So that’s my story of the day.  If you could PLEASE keep me in your prayers, I’d appreciate it 100%.  And if you have ever dealt with something similar, or worked in the ER, message me advice, tips, etc.

2 months ago
#social anxiety #anxiety #panic attacks #panic #ER #emergency room #hospital #clerk #job #advice #help #admissions #work #God #prayer #strength #courage #fear #bravery #fearless #brave #roar 
Don’t let fear control your life.

With some of the things that’s been going on lately, such as the Boston Marathon bombings, Sandy Hook, and the Aurora theater shooting, a lot of people are full of fear, and rightfully so.

My heart and prayers goes out to everyone affected by all those events, and I mean nothing but respect for them.

But, we can’t let fear control us, you know?  We can’t let a few crazy people control our lives.  I’ll admit, when I go to a theater, I still glance around, bring a knife in my purse (hey, better than nothing), and figure out possible escape routes.  I still get scared when my sister goes to work as a fifth grade teacher.  

But do you think the people who lost their lives, would want all of us to be afraid?  I don’t think they would.  I know if it were me, I wouldn’t want people to have fear.  I’d want them to live their lives.

So, don’t let fear stop you from doing things.  Just trust in God, and it’s okay to be a little cautious, just don’t let it control you.  Fear is not something you’re born with, it’s something you learn, it’s something you take.

I’m signed up to do a 5k this weekend, and I’m going to do it.  My mom called and was saying she didn’t want me to do anymore 5ks. But, it’s for a cause that’s special to me (March of Dimes), and I’m not going to let one crazy idiot stop me.  

So, go to the theaters, kiss your kids/little siblings before they go to school, and go run.  Don’t let fear control your lives, and don’t let the actions of evil people ruin them.  

Be fearless, be strong, and carry on.

1 year ago
#fear #afraid #fearless #strength #strong #life #love #loss 
"Everything can change in the blink of an eye. But don’t worry; God never blinks."
2 years ago
#encouragement #life #God #love #change #fear #courage #strength #fitblr 
"I have said these things to you, that in me you may have peace. In the world you will have tribulation. But take heart; I have overcome the world."
John 16:33 
2 years ago
#courage #fear #fearless #strength #peace #God #fitblr #Christian 
"Be strong and courageous. Do not fear or be in dread of them, for it is the LORD your God who goes with you. He will not leave you or forsake you."
Deuteronomy 31:6
2 years ago
#strength #courage #strong #fear #fitblr #Christian #fitness #health #life 
Social Anxiety

I wish more people could understand it.  It’s a very hard thing to live with.  I know anxiety doesn’t seem like it would be, but it is.  I wish everyone in my life could understand what I go through with it, and how much of a challenge it is.  I wish they understood how hard it is to do a lot of the things that’s just normal for everyone else.

I lost a friend today and a lot of it was because she doesn’t understand my anxiety at all. 

Anxiety isn’t just getting nervous.  Social anxiety is literally having a fear of social situations.  I get nervous going to school, work, and even just going to the grocery store sometimes.  I take medicine for it which has helped a lot, but nothing can completely take it away.  It made me depressed for years.  It was a main reason I gained weight.  It is what makes me have so many regrets.  It’s what makes me so sad, because I fear my future will never be what I want it to be.  I’m too scared to make my dreams happen.

Anxiety is a struggle every day.  Panic attacks hit at random times and it doesn’t make sense to most people.

So, please, if you know anyone with anxiety problems, be patient with them.  You might not understand why, but trust me, we don’t either. 

It’s a very hard thing to deal with since most of the people I know have no idea.  My mom is the only person who also has anxiety problems that I’m close to.  I’m so lucky I do have her. 

I hate when people tell me to be a “big girl” or to “just do it”.  Hey, I wish it were that easy!  I wish I could be a big girl and do it.  And I try my hardest to do just that, but I can’t be strong 100% of the time.

Anyways, random rant.  I know this has nothing to do with my fitspo, but it has a lot to do with me.

2 years ago
#social anxiety #panic #panic attacks #anxiety #fear #future #nervous #social 
My biggest fears on weight loss.
  1. That I will lose fat, but my skin will still be all saggy.  I’ve been told as long as I tone, it should be fine.  I’ve also been told that since I’m still young, it will tighten up faster, too.  So, let’s hope.
  2. That I won’t be happy when I reach my goal weight.  I set it because it’s what’s healthy, and of course that’s important.  And I’m sure I’ll look good.  But, I’ve been unhappy with my body my entire life, and I’m afraid that mindset will still be.
  3. That I’ll gain it all back.  I plan on always eating healthy and going to the gym, but when people get content…

Of course, as some of you know, my motto is “Be Fearless.”  When I reach my goal weight, I even plan to get Fearless tattooed on my side really small to remind me what I went through.  But still, I’m trying to be Fearless, but it’s still hard!

Does anybody else have any of these fears?

3 years ago
#weight loss #weight #fitspo #fitness #health #healthy #fear #fearless